And then you came in like soft midnight gliding across any obstacles that may appear between us
Time went wild to slow and diminish the explosion of appearances, But you stood still, in faith. A lone witness, to my death and birth in the trembling silence of night. Awake, when all expands and thins out inside me, making you what you are; my mindless unbidden muse.
I open my eyes each day and reality becomes my biggest dream. I feel the odd freshness of breeze, even though the windows are never open. Cool whispers of air, trickles of water become my everyday companions... and I hold easy conversations with the vibrations of my eardrums. Every sound I hear belongs to me. Every face I see, is mine. Wading deeper and deeper into the elated waters of laughter, I leave a trail of dreams behind me (in case you too decide to lose yourself and find everything in return.)
Yesterday you asked me, why do I speak? I, a slave of my habit responded with an answering question as to why do you listen? Do you not know that I don’t verbalize any words but you create them in your mind through your hearing? You do not make my words discernible when you hear them; you make your own thoughts audible through your hearing. And if my words are your own doing then I am definitely not what you think me to be. The essence of your caricature of me is you, yourself. Not me. Do you know what I thus achieve? I achieve independence; I gain a self which is free from your scrutiny …. free from any boundaries you make to restrict it. I gain ME. But this does not mean I have dissected you. How can I? I do not have the control or the desire. This same verity frees you as well. You only have to realize your freedom just as I have. Does this make you wonder what am I then? Do not think on it. Take me as I am just as I have taken you; without queries. There is no other way for us.
Today, I killed myself with a book. Its words mutilated my thoughts and overruled everything that bore resemblance to me. Today… I killed myself with a book. Tomorrow… Am hoping to die at the hands of a film.
Black is the silence stretched upon your soul. Aging significantly with every passing moment, strong are its ties within you, without you.
Black is the colour of light shining in the solace of your room. Shattering every facade of surroundings, dead is its illusion inside you, outside you.
Black is blue, bluer than all ideas written across your face. Shadowing every line with comfort, alive is its darkness between you and me.
"talking about oneself can also be a means to conceal oneself" (nietzsche).
And as that wishful obscurity will be a mockery on this place, so i better refrain from concealing myself and say no more